The smell of seven snickerdoodles was almost assured every time a new report card came in the mail. As a kid, my brother and I were front-row customers at our local Cheryl’s Cookies bakery on report-card day. It was family tradition. Some well-kept secret in the neighborhood had somehow reached our doorstep: For every “A”Continue reading “Untangling Identity: Letting go of “smart” ego”
I’ve been playing a lot of games of solitaire recently. I enjoy everything about the game: The familiar shape and sound of the cards stacking up. The seemingly infinite ways one can win a game. The quiet meditation the game requires, concentration away from any screen. I think I’ve been drawn to the game recentlyContinue reading “Under Construction: From work to worth”
Palms sweat. My shoulders get too tight and my muscles start to ache. Move. I need to move. I have never been able to take my medicine and swallow my sentence without resistance. I’m like a vine that struggles to reach the sun – scales the walls flexes her leaves with every ounce of vitalityContinue reading “Adventure Awaits”
I’d be untruthful if I didn’t admit that I’ve stumbled, I’ve struggled, and I’ve failed to do what I set out to achieve in these last work-filled 3 months. But I’ll tell you what I know now to be true: It’s always been easier for me to run away from what haunts me, challenges me,Continue reading “The Burnout”
Commitment. Not an easy concept for many of us, including my creative, shape-shifting self.
I walked off the graduation stage with a degree and a 12-month plan — a classic, predictable Bethany Bella move. It was the University of Arizona, or bust. I had already talked with a potential thesis advisor about our shared research interests, and I had plans to visit her in June. I even blocked offContinue reading “Get ready, get set… wait here”